Beat Down
Some days it is almost impossible for me to be positive. Billy and I struggle off and on with finances. We have a lot and are blessed but bills sometimes sneak up on us and barry us. Medical bills and dental bills have been the struggle lately. Add on the changing pay periods and paycheck amount and it is a disaster. We are so broke I had to ask dad for gas money this week just to get to and from work. This is very hard for me because I feel like I am admitting defeat when I have to ask for help, I hate it. But, I did it! Then today in class I get a phone call from my old boss saying that I am going to owe them TONS of money to pay back tuition reimbursement. I asked before I gave my notice to make sure I would stay long enough and then this happens. Thats what I get for trusting people I guess, I should have kept track myself, I know better than that. But I am already struggling worse than normal and then this happens. I then get some new bills in the mail to add on to the pain and stress.
Beat down is how I am feeling today, like I will never be able to conquer. I generally don’t believe in things like karma but sometimes I wonder if I am paying for something I did. I try not to be mean to people, I try to live honestly and still I can never seem to get us out of this mess of debt we are in. Guess I will have to get even more creative, there has to be a better way.
I’m sorry. Finances and money are no fun.
hi! i just came across your blog and thought it was appropriate to leave a short message. i’m sorry to hear about your finances… i wish you all the best for the future. it’s gonna get better!